Are you there, God? It's me, Sunny J....

And if You've got a minute to spare, I'd like to make a heart-felt request of You... I'D LIKE MY VA-JAY-JAY BACK.

As stated in a previous post, I spent almost two years in constant pain, suffering from a condition called vulvadynia. I believe the term 'vulvadynia' is Latin for 'coochie hell.' There are many forms of this disorder; mine began with yeast-infection like symptoms, then ballooned into pain, burning, swelling, and even a slight rash. My doctor, God bless her soul, put me through an embarrassing battery of tests, including ones for STD's, infections, and the like; all came back negative. Month after month, the symptoms would vanish with my period, then reappear a week or so later in varying degrees. In the mean time, I continued to work, work out, and try to live a normal life, but wearing jeans was out of the question, and ditto sex. In desperation, she send me to a specialist three hours away- a doctor who specializes in this condition. Praise Jesus! He diagnosed me almost immediately (after ruling out Lupus,) and I was quickly scheduled for a surgery called a vestibulectomy.

I guess I should pause to explain exactly what Vulvadynia is. It is a condition of the nerve endings in the va-jay-jay; in response to previous trauma (childbirth, episiotomies, painful s*e*x, repeated infections, chemical sensitivity,)the nerve endings go crazy, firing off at the least stimulation (like riding a bike, wearing jeans,etc.) A vestibulectomy removes the bartholins glands and the affected/traumitized area of the vestibule (look it up - I'm not going to get graphic,) then reconstructs the area. Thanks to good pain-killers, I recovered quickly (felt alot like the first week or two after childbirth,)and was delighted to discover my 'reconstruction' work had double benefits! (Heh heh heh- can you say "multiple O's"?)

So now, suffering through my first bout of pain in over a year, I am panicked by the possibility that my condition could be back. My specialist says no- it may be a minor relapse, but I will never suffer like that again- but am still worried. And why would I be bleeding after 'relations' again? No reason! My tests have all come back normal- for the love of all that is holy, being my old self again was like getting a new lease on life.

I am praying...